Starting Over

I’m a bit embarrassed.

Let me explain:

😔 You know that feeling of dusting off your bathroom scale from early 2020… and the feeling you get seeing the number?
Or,
😔 That feeling you get when you’ve been eating SO HEALTHY all day, but then a full Ben & Jerry’s is empty…and you feel pretty ashamed with yourself?

Right now feels a little like that.

Once upon a time, I was doing pretty good.
I was healthy, fit, and able to crush my goals.

Today, I tried to repeat the picture below.

I knew I wouldn’t come close to the weight.
But oh, how I have backslided.

😔
I know I’m not alone… right?

Every time you think “why couldn’t I just have been BETTER?”
Every time you think “How did I get here.. again??”
Every time you think “I just can’t do this.”

For you, it might be something else you used to be “good” at
And now, you’re not.
☠️ Addiction
☠️ Overeating
☠️ Not exercising
☠️ Goals not met
☠️ Dreams never realized

It sucks.

The way I see it, there are 2 options:
1. Give up. Wake up to the idea that “I’m NEVER going to be better. Why try?”
2. Start over. Begin again. Swallow my pride, my ego and…. get going.

I don’t know if I’ll be able to repeat the weight I lifted in this photo.
But I’m going to start trying.

BUT: Not with any self hostility.
THIS time… with a positive inward view.

One that I can live with long term.
Not self judgmental or self flagellating.

Something uplifting.
Something like this:

Begin Again.
Begin Again.
Begin Again.
💙