Starting Over

I’m a bit embarrassed.

Let me explain:

😔 You know that feeling of dusting off your bathroom scale from early 2020… and the feeling you get seeing the number?
Or,
😔 That feeling you get when you’ve been eating SO HEALTHY all day, but then a full Ben & Jerry’s is empty…and you feel pretty ashamed with yourself?

Right now feels a little like that.

Once upon a time, I was doing pretty good.
I was healthy, fit, and able to crush my goals.

Today, I tried to repeat the picture below.

I knew I wouldn’t come close to the weight.
But oh, how I have backslided.

😔
I know I’m not alone… right?

Every time you think “why couldn’t I just have been BETTER?”
Every time you think “How did I get here.. again??”
Every time you think “I just can’t do this.”

For you, it might be something else you used to be “good” at
And now, you’re not.
☠️ Addiction
☠️ Overeating
☠️ Not exercising
☠️ Goals not met
☠️ Dreams never realized

It sucks.

The way I see it, there are 2 options:
1. Give up. Wake up to the idea that “I’m NEVER going to be better. Why try?”
2. Start over. Begin again. Swallow my pride, my ego and…. get going.

I don’t know if I’ll be able to repeat the weight I lifted in this photo.
But I’m going to start trying.

BUT: Not with any self hostility.
THIS time… with a positive inward view.

One that I can live with long term.
Not self judgmental or self flagellating.

Something uplifting.
Something like this:

Begin Again.
Begin Again.
Begin Again.
💙

Dirtbikes cause fractures: Pelvis and Scapula

This is the second call I’ve gotten about fractures and dirtbikes.  The first was someone I saw who raced up a sand dune only to find the back was not there.. and he fell 20 feet onto his bike, fracturing his pelvis- which is a hard thing to do!

Today I saw a scapular fracture, it was a guy who went over his handlebars and now can’t raise his arm above his shoulder.  Apparently this is expected after fracturing your scapula.  Treatment for a fracture that’s still relatively lined up (non displaced) is to just keep it in a sling for a few weeks, but keep flexing the elbow so as not to lose muscle tone or develop any other disuse symptoms.  After 3 weeks, having someone move the shoulder (passive range of motion) should help regain strength in the shoulder.

Surgical indications are if the fracture is displaced, involves the articulation with the humerus, and some coracoid process fractures.  As I got sent home sick today and am miserably typing from my couch and don’t have the energy to look in my Handbook of Fractures, I can add more later.  Right now I’m going to blow my nose and take a nap instead.

…. The only thing I thought to add is that I’d like to try dirtbiking some day.  Seriously, no sarcasm!  I accidentally got my ninja on some sand, it freaked me out for a sec when it fishtailed and I worried about how junky my chain would get but if I had a dirtbike I bet you could take some badass curves and the lack of roadrash would be a plus!

Surprise to me from myself

I’m actually looking forward to working out every day now, even days I lift weights!  Two weeks ago I never would have thought that.  What, me, lifting and pool running?  No way.

In the past two weeks I’ve kept to a pretty solid cardio/strengthing routine and I think what keeps me upbeat and sticking to it is how it feels at the end of the day… the miracles of exercise are never ending!  More energy, better sleep, craving for healthy foods, appetite easily satiated, better mood, etc. etc.  Yesterday someone passed me and said “what happened, you look so happy!”  “Just came back from the gym,” I said with a smile on my face. 

Who knew there was more to exercise than just running?!